How can i get the trust nd respect back from my cuz nd my ex bf?

i miss both my cuzine nd my ex bf bcuz we dnt talk no more bcuz of me bcuz my cuzine was goin wit my bf cuzine nd it was like cuzines datin cuzines nd i had phone wit my cuzine bf nd my bf cuzine so my bf dnt never want 2 talk 2 me again cuz he says im a ho nd me nd my cuzine havent been talkin since dat happened my bf was my everything he had my back nd i was goin 2 loose my virginity 2 him i luv him so much nd my cuzine was my everything 2 she had my back nd gave me good advice nd diz happend like last month nd when me nd her did talk she was sayin how i was a ho nd allthe above nd my ex dnt never want 2 talk 2 me again cuz i think he cant trust me but i miss them soo much wat should i do please help